5222.) You loved her and she broke you. I put you back together and now you love me, but I'm afraid that if it doesn't work out between us you'll be even worse off than before. I don't want you to fall apart over me. You deserve better than that.
I woke up yesterday feeling like it was going to be a good day. School was good, no problems there. I got to see Brian before the show and before he went to see Jimmy Eat World and that was awesome. But somehow, the night took a bad turn and I ended up so bummed and upset that it was horrible.
I had never felt so cheap before in my life. A bunch of people I consider friends, all at pretty much the same time asked if I was ‘down to fuck’ and when I asked what brought this about suddenly and it was all ‘Well your new haircut looks really hot’. Seriously? You’re going to risk ruining our friendship just to get your dick wet because I change my hair a tiny bit and now it’s all ‘Lets fuck!’?
I was about ready to cry last night at the show in front of David and whomever else was there. One of my really good friends asked if I wanted to ‘break in his new bedroom’, do you know how awkward that made me feel? Two more friends, a guy I’ve spoken to maybe twice, and some other people all asked things along the same lines and I just, wanted to go find a pair of scissors and cut all my hair off at that moment.